Autism = Changeling????

In light of recent events I have come to question many things. Religion one of them, as noted in the link, but it's more than that. If you have read this, than you will also know that I have NEVER been treated like a Human. In fact, since I was 4 years old, adults have told me I was eveything other than Human. They told me I was a witch. They told me I was a demon or was possessed by a demon. They told me I was or had a poltergeist. They told me I had an evil spirit that should be hidden from the world and at 8 years old I was locked away by adults to live the rest of my past 26 years in absolute isolation and solitude with nothing but animals for compainionship. I have not been allowed to leave the house except to go to church. I have not been allowed to have Human friends.

At church, members and leaders shared my family's sentiments. With each new Sunday, I was told by more and more Humans that I did not deserve to be among them because I was too differant, because I was not like them, because I was not one of them. They told me I was eveything other than Human. They told me I was a witch. They told me I was a demon or was possessed by a demon. They told me I was or had a poltergeist. They told me I had an evil spirit. I was never allowed to sit among the members, forced instead to sit alone in a chair against the back wall during my youth, and alone in a chair in the hall later on. The other children were not allowed by their parents to speak to me, because as they said, I needed to be punished, to be taught a lesson, to learn that I was not one of them, because as they said I was evil - the child of Satan.

I have never understood their words or their actions, but I quickly learned not to voice my confussion as that would only result in exocism attempts. Do you have any idea how many times I've had oil dumped on my head and the hands of many church leaders on my head as the prayed loudly to cast out my demons? I couldn't even begin to count.

It's been 34 years now. Four years ago I was told I had Autism, thus explaining why I did not act the same as every one else. Family and church members however say that the doctor lied and that Autism is just an excuse, Satan's way of decieving folks into allowing a demon possessed person to continue on in their duties as a witch. I continue to question their accusations. I remain as always, puzzled by their words. I am confussed by the things they say to me and about me. I have come to question now, if what they say is true: am I not Human? And if I am not Human, what than am I? How did I get here? How would I find out? Does anyone know?

I was trying to find out more information when I found out about Indigo and Crystal and Rainbow Children. I'm not too sure exactly what they are, but from what little I've read so far, I'm wondering if I am in the category too? How would I go about finding out? Is there any sort of "official" way of testing or is just more hit and miss guess work or something in between the two?

I'm trying to make sense of this whole Asperger Syndrome thing, but it's hard because I get no support from family or church and I don't know any one else. I am basically left alone in my room all day, but at least I have my computer and can thus try to find someone online. Surrprisingly people online are nothing like the people I've known in person and so I feel more confidant about being able to ask you people for advice, in hopes that I can get some real answers (I do not consider the "demon possession" and "witch" accusations to be real answers!) I try very hard to make sense of these things but it's difficult because I've no one to ask advice from.

I am very confused and upset right now, seeing how the bishop has decided to excommunicate me from the church on grounds of witchcraft. I've never had any place to go other than to church and in 2 weeks I will not be allowed back there because they say I am a witch. I am very sad and lonely right now. I wish I knew what to do or how to handle this situation, but I don't and I've no one to talk to about it either.

Autism does not = witchcraft. I know that, why don't they? Why do they treat me like this? I don't understand.

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